"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances.I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want." Philippians 4:11-12
My family and I continue on, persevering in this new testing of our faith. Odds continue to stack against us and time is running at a feverish speed. My flesh has been tempted to fixate on the circumstances which invites my mind to begin its own journey toward vain imaginations. I knew that I was going too far because I no longer felt the Lord's peace but only the world's pressures. I went to the Lord with all that was on my heart and He gently said,
"Coveteousness is opposite of Contentment"
I needed some teaching, some correction so that a better direction would be my destination. It's easy in trials and affliction to focus on those things that press us and cause discomfort, instead of those things that promise us, that He is there. That's the flesh or sin nature in us, or in this case, the flesh in me. What I had to know was the full meaning of this word "covetousness" that God spoke to me.
Covetousness means to "fix the desire upon, lust after, long for" and I realized that there is no peace in that behavior and the heart motive was not good.
Yes, things were a tough at the time, but were my family and I really in need? I have seen so many in worse situations and others doing far better than us but lacking joy, peace, and hope. I had to realize that I have everything that I need because of the gift of grace that I have received through faith in Christ Jesus. I am abounding, I am rich because I have the Lord's presence in my life.
I think about the great privilege to be called a child of God and how my Lord has never failed me. I recounted the goodness that goes before Him and the power that His hand wields. I recall the times that we were delivered, miraculously, and ministered to intentionally. This Jesus has been everything and in that knowledge, I can be content. There was no need for me to be covetous or fixing my desire on things that don't live. There was no reason to lust after things that cannot love. Jesus covers both those areas and while I live, I need His love.
I was encouraged and at peace knowing with Christ, I was content to be His.